::melody day like back then::

I wait every day, end up crying and without a word, hurt alone

Like a fool, I keep telling myself, that kind of happiness doesn’t come easily

I didn’t want to hurt again and I couldn’t bear to show you my heart because I’m scared

No matter how much I pretend to be alright and smile, my heart keeps making me cry

Are you looking at me? Are you looking at my heart?

I hold it in and hold it in again but it hurts like crazy

I throw it out and erase it again but I’m at the same place

Come back, hold me, just like that time

I endlessly tell myself that I’m alright now, that I’m really alright

I told myself countlessly that this kind of hardship is nothing to me

I didn’t think I’d see you again and because I can’t stay by your side

No matter how much I try to take it off,

The longing that’s on me is spreading

Are you looking at me? Are you looking at my heart?

I hold it in and hold it in again but it hurts like crazy

I throw it out and erase it again but I’m at the same place

Leave so that I can’t remember this love

But just don’t forget this

Only you were the reason I lived

The person who stayed by me, the person who made me live

Even when I hold my breath in and look, a person that I long for

I can’t fill up that love in my heart

Come back, hold me, just like that time

p/s: IloveYou

::syukur::

Islam itu indah. . . ajarannya indah-indah belaka. . . 

(:

inginku lahirkan rasa kesyukuran yang tak terhingga atas nyawa yang Allah s.w.t kurniakan kepadaku.walaupun banyak dosaku, Dia masih memberi peluang kepadaku untuk bertaubat. .. Dia Maha Mengetahui,Maha Mengasihani. . . 

I wanna show my gratitude for letting me go through my days smoothly without even think about things that i don't want to remember. . . last year, 17th March was a **** day for me. masa berlalu terlalu cepat hingga aku pun x sedar, dh stahun ia terjadi.kepada orang itu dan orang itu, harap anda maafkan saya. . . i don't know ur stituation and u too. but i really hope that we can talk n clear everything that trouble my mind all this while..haisss...sekian.

p/s: doakan nenda saya cepat2 sihat (:

we're complicated in our own way

yes, you might see me as a stupid person, but I choose this path, I choose to be like this, I choose to be me, when time comes, it will reveal the truth. . .if we're meant to be, we'll be. . . if we're not meant to be, we'll see. . .

as long as we're happy now, that's enough. don't think about the past, don't predict what in the future,just live your life to the fullest and appreciate those who are still with you through good and bad.you will never know when they are going away from you, so love them, appreciate them, and show to them that you care, that you love. i'm doing this not because i want to seek revenge or for fun or for nothing, it's indescribable i just love even though it hurts. when you love someone, it is not necessarily involving two parties. you can just love anybody, anything without restriction.it's your heart by the way.not theirs. . .i hope that ONE fine day will come and i get the answer for my own question. open your eyes, open your heart, open your mind.love yourself before you can love others. 

p/s:do not fall in love because thing that falls always break and that hurts you, just love and you'll be okay (:

L.O.V.E